// Next two tattoos…//

My next tattoo I’m getting in early January is a pan am stewardess pin up girl as a reminder of my families run with pan am airlines and in remembrance of my grandfather and the awesome opportunities that he made possible for my mom, aunt, and uncle in their childhood. My family always tell me stories of them traveling all over the US and the world and all the awesome things they experienced by having access to unlimited flights due to my grandfather working for pan am until the company died. I think that the places my mom got to see are amazing and even though I don’t get to travel like she did when she was a teenager I still love hearing the stories of her going to Italy and stuff. I will forever be in love with aviation and my tattoo will be an ode to my families history with the air line along with my hidden love for aviation and pin up girls and the message that they convey.

After I finish that tattoo I plan on getting more text. I plan on getting the phrase “Their story lives on…” Tattooed on my back directly behind my heart. This one will be for my friends that are here and that are no longer here. It’s for any of my friends who have every struggled and/or currently struggle with depression or self harm and also for my one friend who committed suicide this past year. Not many people realize the amount of people I know who struggle and God constantly brings these people into my life. I can never figure out why because I have never been in the positions many of them are in and I feel like I have a hard time relating to them because I can only relate to them through other friends experiences. The reason I chose the phrase “their story lives on…” Is because no matter what happens to these people in my life their story will live on. I’ll go on to tell their story no matter what happens to them whether or not they continue on or not. Their story will live on through me. Granted I always hope that those people will continue on and they’ll live on to tell their story along side me. Since I was 11 I was exposed to people struggling with depression and self harm so its something that I’ve been around for a while and there’s always been a special place in my heart for these people. People tell me “you can’t save every one” but dammit I’ll try my best. So with this tattoo 8 people’s stories will live on…and I know as I go through life that number will probably increase 8 isn’t a high number but its 8 lives too many. One of the 8 no longer is living and 4 are now stories of recovery and hope and there are three who are still struggling and I know that all three are with out a doubt strong enough to pull through their tough times and they will one day be stories of recovery and hope as well.

// So stoked….//

Found my stewardess pin up tonight for my Pan Am stewardess pin up tattoo I’m getting in January!!!!!!:)))))

// Saturday night…//

I’m going with Grace to see Kreayshawn at The Social!!! I just can’t even believe it, I’m so stoked!!! Ahhh I’m gonna be in the same room as Kreayshawn!